1. Have you had any relationships in 2007? How many?
Yeah, one.

2. Have you had your birthday yet?
Yes. Feb 16th

3. Kissed two people in the same night?
Lmao, of course

4. Been on a diet?
Kind of. I started eating better. Then stopped. now I'm doing it again. I'm like Oprah.

5. Pulled an all nighter?
Yeah like four times -.-

6. Drank Starbucks?
Nope. Only THREE CENTS GOES TO THE COFFEE BEAN FARMERS IN ETHIOPIA =; shame on you. [/sarcasm]

7. Went camping?
Yes! Last night in Caitlins backyard.

8. Bought something(s)?
Yes, lots of things.

9. Met someone new who you care for?
Ummmmm... Wow. No... I mean I've come to care for a couple of people MORE this year, but i knew them all last year. [Unless you count the internet, in which case, yes].

10. Been out of province?
Yes

11. What are you thinking about?
That I'm misunderstood tonight :\ which is lame, but whatever.

12. Hugged someone?
Yus. I get lots of cuddles. I like my sleepy warm nekkit boycuddles the most though.

13. Slept in someone else's bed?
Lmao, yes.

14. Got a job?
I'm about to.

15. Loaned out money?
Nope. WAIT YES when me and Lessa went to melbourne

16. Gotten in a car accident ?
Nope

17. Gone over your mobile phone bill?
Yeah, bills are so 2005

18. Been called a bitch?
Duh.

19. Done something you regret?
Yes. Highly.

LAST:
Last person you hugged?
Nikki!

Last person to call you?
Lukey Wukey puuuuuuuuuur *pinches his cheek* he was being nice.

When was the last time you felt stupid?
Erm. Recently

What was the last thing you yelled?
"I AM you fucking ASSHOLE"

TEN FACTS:
1. Hometown?
Kyanbera desudesudesudesudesu.

2. Natural Hair Colour?
Light brown

3. Initials?
JMS

4. Hair style?
Long and curly.

5. Eye colour?
Blue.

6. Height?
Short

7. Pets?
2 dogs and a cat

8. Mood?
completely apathetic with alternating spikes of affectionate and pissed off.

...What? I'm normal

9. Where would you rather be?
I'm not sure. I feel like running away, really

10. What was the last thing you drank?
Coke

THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:
1. Are you straight?
Nope

2. Do you believe in love?
*sighs* if you can bring me a definition of love, then I will tell you. Seriously, I'm as romantic as the next guy, but for god sakes, unrealistic expectations ARENT HELPING YOU.

3. Why did your LAST relationship fail?
Because I'm a vindictive overbearing arrogant ass-hat who thinks hes smart and I was dating an immature scene-fag with emotional problems.

4. Have you ever been heartbroken?
I've had fractures, I'm sure.

5. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I think so. Woops.

4. Have you ever fallen for your best friend?
Lol, no, theyre always girls. Except dimir, and you know... no way. lol

7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
lmao, obviously. but probably not since I was about 17.

8. Are you afraid of commitment?
Nope.

9. Have you had more than 5 different SERIOUS relationships in your life?
Nope

EMOTIONS:
1. Are you missing someone right now?
I'm missing the universe. This room is so cut off. It's irritating my sunburnt arms.

3. Are you eating anything?
Nope

4. Do you like someone right now?
I'm not sure

So. Sometimes I really hate life, for absolutely no reason. and I tend to enjoy it more while I'm hating. isnt that stupid? is it wrong to want simplicity? isn't simple kind of equal to stupid? how is stupid better? its like we're on a quest to be stupid. even in new things, they make them stupid so "normal" people can use them. Dumb much?

But I enjoy being angry. just look at this post. what the hell is the point of posting this? theres no point at all in asking twenty million questions and putting them in your personal journal [dedicated, you twat, to fanfiction reveiws, good work there(!)]? Why would anyone? Whats with the stupid compulsive need to splatter ones thoughts around the world. I hope everyone suddenly becomes psychic so they think less loudly cause its freaking annoying sometimes.

Installment one! Moody x Moody. yummy.

Rating: you know what? fanfiction ratings are bullshit. Someone gets naked. It stops before true graphicness though. Allusions to Death Eatery badness *taps nose*.

Lame title. deal.

( A Tale of Despair )

So then, I had a sudden aversion to the idea of Moody naked. Ew, have you seen the movie? Sorry guys.

<3

So. I have decided that from sheer boredom, I'm going to write a fanfiction in Harry Potter based on ever possibly pairing, according to fanfiction.net's list of characters. no more will you search for random names and have "No entries found with current settings/filters." appear!

Onwards! *grabs pen*

Edit:

I'm actually using a keyboard.

Further, I would like to mention that these probably wont be good. Or plotfull. Or canon. Or... well, anything. I'm just bored. I'll try and keep them nice but...

And also, yes, this includes character1 x character1 [like moody x moody]. This *IS* Harry Potter, after all.

So I got my hair cut a bit and now I'm gonna keep it straight right. It's gonna be like this but shorter and like... layered and stuff so its a bit neater. anyway:



Lolllll. D: comment or something.

Post your desktop in a picture lol and then like rofl people can ask questions and you answer them rofl. or something.

( I just wanna 'show off' my desktop... )

So gay me and my little gay brother joel and my gay friend Luke were all walking to the interchange yesterday, when we passed these three girls dressed in horrible colours, with pounds of makeup on and bad hair styles right [i think they call it "fashion" :o]

Anyway we were talking along minding our own business, and one of the girls just goes "Gaaa~aay!" as she walks past. I was like uhhhh what the fuck? But my little brother goes "sluuu~uut!"

Then they had this screaming match down the length of the interchange tunnel. Only in canberra D: seriously, they were like 15.

Buh

So i was talking to lessa. the crap i said is in bold. notes and stuff in (normal text)

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theres a song from a movie that we watched together in perth (it was Hedwig and the Angry Inch) its called "the long grift" (this song is actually from the stageplay, not the movie, but i get where it fits into the story) and the lyrics go "look what youve done you gigolo, you know that i loved you hun, and i didnt want to know that your cool seductive serenade was a tool of your trade you gigolo"

which hurts me a bit, cause its a little bit like what camerons like. dunno if he does it on purpose, but yeah.... he was just so everything I've ever wanted [mostly] in a guy, and that he could "seduce" me so easily was just what he does (there was no literal seduction in the sex sense. just the ... romantic sense... or w/e).  I dunno. I keep thinking that I'm over doing it and it not really like that, but everyone else has their dramas, AND they tell me I'm too emotionally detached... so maybe this is life

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Then we digressed and another hedwig song came on SO...

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oh this other song from this movie also breaks my heart...hold on let me sing it <3 its called in your arms tonight. and this movie, i fell asleep literlally in his arms (well, we were sitting together... I cant remember exactly how we were sitting ^_^; focussing on other things. the point is that it was close and nice and i loved it).
running head on
to things that knock me down
over again
you picked me off the ground
and i wasnt strong enough to fight
anymore...
but your in your arms tonight
hold me close and tight
in your arms tonight
in your arms tonight
in your arms tonight
oh my love 

god only knows
why i dont just retreat
instead of riding the rails
back to the place of my worst defeat
cause I'm not fooling anyone
not quite
[something]
chorus 

anyway, its reaaaaaally awesome cause its technically a rock song but its slowish but not in the boring sense and the chords just make me want to bawl, and the solo is this really simple guitar riff that also makes me want to bawl ....and then the vocal bridge makes me want to bawl and then i remember cameron and how awesome he was and how fucking much i loved watching this movie with him while resting in his arms, literally, and i just really want to bawl

>< *bawls*

only i dont cry, so I'm not actually bawling... ugh, seriously lessa you have no idea how much i miss perth. the trains and the city and the dinners we had on the piers...and the sunset on the beach and the singstar in his room. and his fireplace and just everything. that also makes me wanna bawl

lol alright </rant>

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So I remember the stupidest things about perth. like I remember cameron telling us about how people saw a ghost... fish or ... what the hell was it? "remember" ;O right jesse. Anyway. like a ghost sea creature, and people would pay you for photos of it or whatever. that was on the piers where we had dinner <3 Dont remember what we ate though... and i remember kitty and kats awesoemcore house. and i remember just random stuff like... we went on a random night tour [ooooo spooky] of the old fremantle prison. and it wasnt really spooky... but it was interesting and kind of haunting in the soul... we held hands a bit and stuff. I know he said he thought of me like that and that he says now that I'm still really important to him, but he has many many other things that are more important to him, as far as i can tell, so... I just get uber sad about him. hes seriously the only person i get emotional about...

<3

oh yeah...

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Jesse // Zach says:
I'd LJ all that, but cameron reads my LJ... maybe i should do it anyway, cause I want to, and stop worrying abotu what he thinks

Lessa // Friend says:
yeah, just do it. its your LJ

Bold the Truth.

( ololol i tagd u )

I know I'm probable being stupid but...

Cameron

Cameron

Cameron

Cameron

Cameron

Cameron

Cameron

If you're reading this, comment me to tell me where you've been. I'm worried you've done something that no one will ever tell me about, because the people you know don't know that I exist, most like...

So, we went to Sydney on Tuesday morning, right, and it was like so awesomecore. I woke up at 6:45 and had a shower etc etc. Then I talked to Mum about some significant stuff which I can't specifically recall right now, something about travel or work I think. Anyway then Lessa and Caitlin knocked at the door so i finished talking to Mum. So they knocked again :O I was like shut up! But anyway.

Then, I saw Caitlin's mum for the first time EVER. How exciting. She's cool. Their car is tiny, also. So I put my crepe in there, and then OFF WE WENT WHEEEEE. So then we got to the jolimont center, and we milled nervously, it was SO CUTE ^_^ We we're like "Where do... like what do we....*mumble*". So we went up to the nice desk and they told us We'd only need out reservation number to get on the bus. So we sat down, right.

And THEN. The bus was supposed to leave at 9:00, so we could board and whatever at like, 8:45. But at 8:30 some bus pulled up in our bay thing, and everyone like RUSHED out to stand near it. And we we're like... The hell are they doing. So then we milled a bit more and went back to the help desk and they were like "Those people are just impatient!" So of course we went over to stand with them ^_^. And theeeeen...

We chucked out luggage away and there was much confusedness because like, some people were putting luggage here or there and we were like D: WHAT IF WE NEVER SEE IT AGAIN? ooh it was great. Anyway evENTUally we got on the bus, which was like, massively tall just btw. And we sat down and I got to sit next to some old maaan :D which is actually more of a D: event.

Anyway, it really didnt seem like 3 1/2 hours of bussing. I think I fell asleep three or four times, for like ten minutes. *shrugs* I'm a tired baby. Anyway. I read some potter and listened to some iPod. Yay.

THEN WE GOT OFF AT SYDNEY YAAAAAY. It was so exciting <3 Uhm. I bnought a coke from seveneleven [which is ridiculously fun to type by the way, even funner than minutes], cause I needed change to get on the bus. Then we ran around looking for a bus, which we eventually found, and of course the awesome rickety erratic sydney buses come once every like, ten minutes. Awesome. So we got on it, and this time i got to sit next to a random Indian man :D which was also kind of D:

Anyway we stared intently out the window looking for familiar... well, they did anyway, I just kind of stared at all the funny angled roads...yeah. Then we went past the blatantly obv. university and got off one stop too soon. Lessa espied some HXC fans already lined up, so we went to the Roundhouse before we went to the hotel, and talked to some random people.

Then we went and signed in and got our hotel key and all that, and went up to the hotel room which was cute. And, and, outside the hotel window [tiny, up high, lol] there were these houses [which were across a road] and they had stone fences with metal spikes on them [that was a terrible description] but yeah it was awesome <3 *nostalgia*

THENNNN! Lessa decided that since we weren't gonna be there first [or even like fortieth], we didnt have to rush back. So we went and got me mcdonalds and some stuff from the BP, and then went and sat down anyway.

While we were there, we met MITCHELL our line friend, and his two girl friends, one of whom was an italian exchange student! She sounded so italian, it was great. She was also tall. *creeped* And yes, I think mitchell was gay *defiant* I was honestly the only guy there until mitchell turned up, lol. Although there were more guys at the actual concert... we came to the conclusion that the guys just werent as dedicated as the girls.

So thennnn...Uhm... can't remember the order but we bought craploads of stuff from the random shop in the uni, and Lessa got a picture with Gabe from Cobra Starship, and... She dropped the tickets D: not entertaining. lol. Anyway.

So half an hour late, we went into the roundhouse and omg I'll finish this later D:

HERES HOW YOU PLAY: ONCE YOU'VE BEEN TAGGED, WRITE A BLOG WITH 10 WEIRD, RANDOM THINGS, FACTS OR HABITS ABOUT YOURSELF. AT THE END, YOU CHOOSE 10 PEOPLE TO BE TAGGED, LISTING THEIR NAMES AND WHY YOU CHOSE THEM TO BE TAGGED. DON'T FORGET TO LEAVE THEM A COMMENT "YOUR IT!" AND TO READ YOUR BLOG. YOU CANT TAG THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU.

1. Uhm.... The only straight pairing I ship is doctor/rose.

2. My mind automatically starts considering philosophy of elements/balance when its not doing anything else. I mean ANY time it has a spare second, including that gap in between these two sentences.

3. The fact that i ship pairings disturbs me slightly.

4. I don't believe in love, i believe in something greater. Understanding

5. I consider myself to be deep, with sporadic moments where I'm bitterly and self-hatefully aware that I'm an arrogant 18 year old shit.

6. I spend so much time trying to get into Yahoo chat rooms, only to sit there and not type at all. even when i KNOW no one is online, i still struggle to get in for no reason.

7. I was never anything but a good boy

8. I hate drugs and druggos with a passion [as much of a passion as i can summon, and no im not exaggerating]

9. I'm rly tired

10. I'm going to America in October to see Ami. ^_^

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You're all tagged. Sucks to be you.

So I have this theory. It is absolutely pointless and means nothing to anyone except in minor situations and stuff. Or in relation to life patterns *waves hands vaguely*

So theres four elements, leaving Mr Spirity alone temporarily. They are EARTH FIRE WATER and AIR.

*loves elements*

And they have an order right. it goes [from top to bottom] FIRE, AIR, WATER, EARTH.

Alike DIS.

In terms of ... density or solidness, Earth is the most solid, fire having no real solidness at all! And then also, earth is the stillest, fire the most movingzizzle. stuff like that.

I like, base everything off this little structure ^_^. It could even be used as like... story idea things... where there are four realms and theyre all like... you know, levely. Which is not to say, of course, that earth is the LEAST of the elements. its just LOWER. not less important or anything like that ^_^

Then, you have the words EVERYTHING NOTHING ANYTHING and SOMETHING. And they can be correlated but im not exactly sure how yet...

Think about it *couldnt be bothered typing*

An hour later and an evanescence marathon, this is my best attempt at visually capturing my feelings about Cameron.







Fucking awesome.
~ZA

So, keeping in mind that I wrote this when I was drinking, and that I wrote it literally on the fly, and that i made the eventual plot up as i went and therefore added things as I saw them to become necessary [as opposed to BEING necessary] I bring thee....

( schoolboys )

I was drawing freaking character maps at work after I wrote this. But I'm still happy because it shattered my writers block ^_^

Love,
~ZA

Thanks, cameron

( I wrote a song at last )

So, on friday, at work [supermarket], at about eight o'clock or so, the night manager thought it would be a GREAT idea if he tried, unassisted and for the first time, to put some more chickens in the deli cooker.

I didn't know that when I went upstairs. But I thought I smelt something burning.

ME: "Is something burning?"
Coworker with a cold: "*sniffs*.... no..."

*firealarm proceeds to deafen everyone*

El em ef ay oh.  Srsly.

The chickens had BURST INTO FLAME.

Into flame! They shot flame everywhere! Imagine that. *giggles* So when I came back downstairs, they pushed the smoking chicken carcasses past the staircase and I absolutely burst into hysterical giggles. The shop roof was covered in a thick layer of slowly dispersing smoke, and eight or so fireman came rushing in for no real reason other than to check that there was no danger. The customers scowled at the roof as we asked them "Hi, how are you tonight?" Honestly...

It was the second most hilarious thing to ever happen at Supabarn, the first being when the roof collapsed under the weight of the storm and flooded the place. *giggles hysterically*

~ZA

The strong will lead the gentle, and when they get there, the gentle will rule and the strong will defend.

I think it's important for me to know what I want. Here are some things I want or want to do.

1) Learn the third movement of Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata.
2) Learn to speak fluent or semi-fluent Japanese.
3) Watch Hedwig and the Angry Inch with Cameron. Again. Preferably with much cuddling.
4) Go to America, and Japan [again]
5) Write a song I think is successful.
6) Paint a painting I think is successful.
7) Write a story I think is successful.
8) Watch the sun *set* over an ocean, again.

*nods* some things. *tired and lonely*
~ZA

*steals from cam*

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool....

It starts...
1. Opening Credits: Pig - Seether

2. Waking Up: Just a Girl - No Doubt

3. First Day at School: Hang On - Seether

4. Falling in Love: When The Lights Go Down - Armand Van Helden [lmfao]

5. Fight Song: Do It - Spice Girls [HAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAAH XDDDDDDDD]

6. Breaking Up: Falling Down - Muse

7. Prom: Moondance - Nightwish [fucking woot!]

8. Life's Ok: Forgot About Dre - Dr. Dre

9. Mental Breakdown: Crush on You - Aaron Carter *chokes*

10. Driving: Morning Song - Jewel

11. Flashback: Head over Feet - Alanis Morrissette

12. Getting Back Together: The Zephyr Song - Red Hot Chilli Peppers

13. Wedding: I wanna dance with somebody - Whitney Houston

14. Birth of a Child: Pride - Seether [lol, title]

15. Death Scene: Come as you Are - Nirvana

16. Funeral Song: Possibly Maybe - Bjork [oh heck yes]

17. End Credits: The Last Song I'm Wasting On You - Evanescence.